I'm autistic or I have autism. Triviño uses both, but prefers the second: “It’s part of my character, but not all. This is one of my hallmarks of identity, rather than being my totality.” He stressed that autism has awakened and “multiplied” his interests by science and art and has led to doing “a lot” of things: “I’m aware that my brain has capabilities that most people don’t have, like the ability to concentrate, the ability to build certain algorithms…” He says that if there were no autism it would be “normal”: “I wouldn’t feel everything I feel and I couldn’t help people. Autism has given me that, and it's nice."

Although art and science seem to be two opposing worlds, for Triviño there is a “strong” connection between them. In the scientific field, he works on a project to detect epilepsy and artificial intelligence: “My brain is activated in a stack.” The artistic part, on the contrary, uses it to discourage itself, to publicize its needs and to reflect; it is dedicated to music, poetry and theatre. Comedy has helped him “lead better” depression: “I think there were a lot of people who suffered from depression in the pandemic. Depression can destroy us more than a virus. You're alive, but you have the feeling that you can die."

However, it is not a journey from one day to the next, it is a “long” process carried out “little by little”: “Before I was very shy, I had very low self-esteem, even today, and I was not able to speak in public. I have had to overcome myself and take away the stage fear.” Encourages those who feel identified with the issues that lead to the scene to take the microphone: “In Euskal Herria, normally, most scenarios are men. Representation is missing. I think we need to change that.”

Monologues are a tool for people to have fun and reflect on the issues that directly affect them and that few people say: “I make jokes, but at the same time I am claiming something.” Among them, he laughs at the myths that have been created about autism. “Vaccines have often been heard to produce autism. One thing I often say is that I can put all the vaccines I want because I have nothing to lose,” she says. There is also talk about sexuality, the LGTBIAQ+ collective, feminism and Basque identity.

Exclusion and violence

Triviño, who is also immersed in literature, has among her hands several fantasy books she intends to publish later on. At the moment, the book is about to be published: “I think those who have autism, and also those who hate autism, need it. Unfortunately, the latter will not read it.” This is a book on autism, which collects your personal experience and information on the things that have been researched so far: “I live in a conflict between pride and shame. Because autism has given me good things, but also bad things.”

He added that it has been a “great burden”, because other people have marginalized and mistreated it: "People are asking us to change in general and not to do things that relate to autism. Why do I have to change character? I want to be like I am with people.” They tell you, directly or indirectly, not to participate in some plans: “Sometimes they tell me not to come because I don’t know who doesn’t want. That gives power to those who hate me, because they can decide when I can be and when I can't and what I can do."

This is what makes some things that are related to autism and that change behavior or nature not be done or hidden at times. In the case of women or people who have them, the demand is “higher”, which is compounded: “Keeping the autistic part is a great burden, because we are keeping some of our personality.”

In addition, he points out that the probability of suffering sexual violence increases: “I would say that we have all been subjected to sexual assault. We usually imagine that an unknown person would run over us and assault us with physical violence. In the case of people who have autism, it's a trusted or well-known person who uses tricks to confuse and convince us. It includes psychological manipulation. According to the law, this is not a violation, but yes, of course.”

A PART OF THE BODY

The brain. Neurodivergence is directly related to the brain, neurons and neurotransmitters. I'm like me, because of my brain, and each one is as it is because of his brain. The rest of the organs do the function of life, but our personality is in the brain.”